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15 page cognitive film theory paper - Due Thursday April 26th Completed 7 min short film for Directing class - Due April 26th?
6-10 page written midterm - Due Tuesday May 1st
Gammon production book - Due ??? Monday April 30th
Script Analysis for Directing class - Due Tuesday May 1st???
8 hour Comprehensive Exam - Friday May 4th. (10 questions)
Can it be done? Om gam ganapataye namaha! वक्रतुंड महाकाय कोटिसूर्यसमप्रभवक्रतुंड महाकाय कोटिसूर्यसमप्रभ । निर्विघ्नं कुरु मे देव सर्वकार्येषु सर्वदा ॥ गजाननं भूतगणादिसेवितं कपित्थजंबूफलचारुभक्षणम् । उमासुतं शोकविनाशकारकं नमामि विघ्नेश्वरपादपङ्कजम् ॥ सुमुखश्चैकदंतश्च कपिलो गजकर्णकः । लम्बोदरश्च विकटो विघ्ननाशो गणाधिपः । धूम्रकेतुर्गणाध्यक्षो भालचन्द्रो गजाननः । द्वादशैतानि नामानि यः पठेच्छृणुयादपि । विद्यारंभे विवाहे च प्रवेशे निर्गमे तथा । संग्रामे संकटे चैव विघ्नस्तस्य न जायते ॥ शुक्लाम्बरधरं देवं शशिवर्णं चतुर्भुजम् । प्रसन्नवदनं ध्यायेत् सर्वविघ्नोपशान्तये ॥ मूषिकवाहन् मोदकहस्त चामरकर्ण विलम्बित सूत्र । वामनरूप महेश्वरपुत्र विघ्नविनायक पाद नमस्ते ॥ It's Saturday - 3:05 and the only thing I've accomplished on the list is being halfway done with editing the short film -
its running over 7 minutes .. it IS a 15 page adapted screenplay after all. I'm becoming frustrated and angry with my progress - and I procrastinate. It's a vicious cycle.
I'm rather tired of being alone - saying this gets redundant . Doing this massive amount of work - time to do some gratitude work - I'm really trying here. Spinstr.com seems to be my path. I vary between not wanting to do this anymore and diving in with full-on distracted energy. I've come too far to fail - but I really resent them for thinking we can do a good job on any of this *see above. It feels like the point is to drive us to depression and revulsion - well played graduate school, well played. Oh well, choosing my battles. The worst part of this is - when I'm done - I will have no income. I've got to find a summer job. I seriously want to leave this country after graduate school.
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will i find a partner - the love of a good man?| The first excerpt represents the past or something you must release, and is drawn from A Daughter of Eve by Honore de Balzac: chimney-piece. "He distrusts me. Whatever I may want for myself is
refused before I ask it; but as for what flatters his vanity and
proclaims his wealth, I have no occasion to express a wish. He
decorates my apartments; he spends enormous sums upon my
entertainments; my servants, my opera-box, all external matters are
maintained with the utmost splendor. His vanity spares no expense; he
would trim his children's swaddling-clothes with lace if he could, but
he would never hear their cries, or guess their needs. Do you
understand me? I am covered with diamonds when I go to court; I wear
the richest jewels in society, but I have not one farthing I can use.
Madame du Tillet, who, they say, is envied, who appears to float in | The second excerpt represents the present or the deciding factor of the moment, and is drawn from Crito by Plato: overturning them? Was he not brought into the world and educated by their
help, and are they not his parents? He might have left Athens and gone
where he pleased, but he has lived there for seventy years more constantly
than any other citizen.' Thus he has clearly shown that he acknowledged
the agreement, which he cannot now break without dishonour to himself and
danger to his friends. Even in the course of the trial he might have
proposed exile as the penalty, but then he declared that he preferred death
to exile. And whither will he direct his footsteps? In any well-ordered
state the Laws will consider him as an enemy. Possibly in a land of
misrule like Thessaly he may be welcomed at first, and the unseemly
narrative of his escape will be regarded by the inhabitants as an amusing | The third excerpt represents the future or something you must embrace, and is drawn from Tales of the Klondyke by Jack London: interruptions, Fortune lolled about the cabin, playing long games
of solitaire and smoking endless cigarettes. Though his volatile
nature loved geniality and play of words and laughter, he quickly
accommodated himself to Uri's taciturnity. Beyond the actions and
plans of his pursuers, the state of the trails, and the price of
dogs, they never talked; and these things were only discussed at
rare intervals and briefly. But Fortune fell to working out a
system, and hour after hour, and day after day, he shuffled and
dealt, shuffled and dealt, noted the combinations of the cards in
long columns, and shuffled and dealt again. Toward the end even
this absorption failed him, and, head bowed upon the table, he
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58 days until I turn 40 (but I'm not good at math) - Just finished watching the Moore & Eick Battlestar Galactica series (minus The Plan) on Netflix streaming. I really feel like I learn something about what is important in the creative arts by watching this show - How rare it is to get a chance to see something like this project through to completion for a production team. To have a vision that resonates with a lot of people on many levels - in short...to make something beautiful. That which does not bend shall break - not that I need to do more yoga...well - I do but its a good feeling to know I am playing my part even if I only halfway know what that is. Individuation is kind of a farce - but come what may - we earn our face and our story - and our experiences - and true, they are ours... But I feel like the inevitable loss that we feel, while we are gaining these things makes us whole in an entirely different way than we might expect.....magic in the meaning. I realize this probably doesn't make any sense. My Scorpio moon lists towards esoterica and my Cancer rising to tomfoolery. Fun languages to play with - pearls on a thread. Shooting three short films this past weekend was quite an experience. The film I directed - "Critter" was fun to make. A rough cut is due tomorrow so expect to see a trailer soon on the official site and facebook page. Back to the edit.
plinth splint and Spring as may we dance and april we sing glance to your left return to the falls he escapes and climbs the walls - there is water there - they are unclothed and unashamed you were my Father once, but now asCended we watch you fly, climb - the cycle begins once more, In tune they guard the door the gate swings open - I saw Exu running at the crossroads His beauty was astounding - his eyes were fierce maddening sanity, sanctimonious melange we become who we are Mama Oya dances - I am your child I am your child White Tara sways - the wheel is a tuning fork the third eye sees metacognition green grass and stolid trees a river there - once a stream - we gather to empty the bottles water must flow I hear them calling my name - some choose to believe it third eye, cloven brow chimera - a bell rings resonate and rebound the wind nestles in my comfy chair the one i only imagined strange lull a byes anthems of awake what is at steak? Holy cow. forgive Fighting a battle Ignorance is swiss chess - Hail Mary full of wild geese own the antonym of jealousy is trust in me, they, them swim - teach them everything grows temporally challenged year of the cat let it rain the angels sont couverts the story tells itself mandarin tinge love lies bleeding i mop the floor with your alphabet soup time to regroup ride the waves ungrateful the deluge, the out poor - undrinken slake your mirth sintēze синтеза dialectic one to nine - you cant land on maybe you can this is the end
 NBC bought the Sci-fi channel and renamed it syfy...one of the casualties being the Battle Star Galactica spin-off series - CAPRICA. The final five episodes aired all in one night ( I watched them on syfy rewind) - and it was truly worth watching. This is how you create a great ending to a show that had much potential. The three realms represented in Caprica were well-produced, acted, and believable as a reality very near our own focusing on technological and a socio-political precursor to the destruction of the human race in BSG. Shreds and patches of the 1930's - 50's blended with a sleek, high-tech upper class and a youth in revolt element that could be straight out of the 1990's or today by the way they were dressed. The series is very well thought out and beautifully written with a splendid score by Bear McCreary and opening title sequence.The religion created by Ron More, David Eick and Jane Espenson focuses on the monotheism of the cylons and how it came to pass. Issues of fundamentalism - terrorism, mafia - Caprica examines the dark side of religion and spirituality by giving it a very human side with well written motivations and, at its core, a Father/Daughter nod to Metropolis in the GrayStones (A play on Burroughs Greystoke I imagine) where a version of the teen daughter is trapped in the body of a cylon prototype. *SPOILERS* essentially Zoe Graystone is Cylon number one on Caprica - and she becomes the first cylon "skin job" as glimpsed by the last episode. In Apotheosis we see a preview of the second season that was to come - and it looked amazing. I have a feeling they will get to make the second season of Caprica - if not at least in graphic novel format or webisodes to finish the thread of a good sci-fi tale. On a similar note - I have been watching the Russel T. Davies Dr.Who episodes - on Netflix. David Tennant and Catherine Tate are my favorites - the Ninth Dr. as the Hermit-time-lord has got to be my favorite Doctor tho Matt Smith is really easy on the eyes... even if he is a bit alien and whimsical - but that's the spirit of the Doctor I suppose. So I have been a sci-fi nerd over the break...taking in some really well written and fun story lines. I also managed to read most of the book The Shallows by David Carr - an important book for the future of our brains and our cultural heritage... if not just to have shallow brain matter for the zombie apocalypse - I guess the question is - are you eating the shallow brain matter or being eaten - probably a bit of both - Neuroplasticity is a funny thing. I feel it really comes down to a loss of meaning and deep thinking/feeling - and how we derive meaning from our activities... will you remember a life-changing text message as much as a letter or postcard you receive in the mail?? Especially when you receive hundreds of texts a day or week? bah - In conversation do you find yourself saying - "Oh that's what Fred said to me...," but in reality you just read it on his blog or it was just a text message...?? Somethings got to give because this technology is taking so much... My dreams have been very intense and vivid lately - not sure if I've just been sleeping better - or if the work I do in my dreams is just seeping over more into the waking world - all of the above? One thing that does stand out is the visitations - I've been visiting jobs I have had and people I have known for good or ill in my dreams lately. No nightmares really - unless I count working at Moon Distributin - that was a nightmare in many ways... Its good to see everyone in my dreams - perhaps the threads of the collective unconsciousness are binding ever tighter to prepare us for the days to come..."I hold the line - the line of strength that pulls me through The fear" - The year of the Rabbit will be a daring Adventure - hope I see you in the flesh and not just in my dreamings. My horoscopes have been mentioning me finding someone to date soon - I need to put myself out there more if that is going to become a reality - I'm open to suggestions CEP
The OA 10: Questions we ask of every interviewee. 1. What superstitions do you have? Mercury Retrograde is real,
Squirrels should be watched out for, and the gay mafia is also real-
it is flakey but organized. Time travelers
are documenting your every move...
I also feel the full moon gives me insomnia, and that
if I pick up rocks, stones and various items along my path
that they hold messages for me and I understand them fully most of the time.
Sundogs are good luck (parhelion)
and cameras really do steal your soul - or what it is at that moment.
Spelling out letters is magic - writing or sketching
binds your thoughts and stichomancy truly taps into something
beyond the veil of consciousness...is that superstitious enough for you?
2. What would you like to change about yourself?
I want to be less serious, and more sincere - and deeply meditate.
I find that I react to things when I am in a poor state of mind
and that is the absolute worst time to react...and the most difficult
time not to - so yeah - improving at meditation (focus and gratitude)
and letting go of the illusion of Self and Ego.
3. What are you still trying to accomplish in your professional career? I want to teach, direct documentary and narrative films, Complete the Circus & Sideshow tarot - and do some voice over work. 4. What is your hidden talent?
I am a mimic and I like to sing, sometimes in my own voice.
5. What subject causes you to rant? Capitalism, 911(and how the govt is lying about what actually happened), Christopher Nolan's lack of a heart. I'm passionate about a lot of issues but I can argue any perspective on account
of being an INFP and all...
6. What is the biggest mistake you ever made in your professional life?
I tried to have a career, rather than taking real risks. Being "Time Poor" is worse than
being financially poor. Follow your Bliss.
7. What is one thing that you used to dislike but that you now like?
Battlestar Galactica (SyFy) - Thanks To Michael Smith :D
Oh! And Sushi - thanks to Richard Pearson :D
8. What profoundly underrated book, album, or movie would you like to champion for us?
book - non fiction: the Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot is my metaphysical Bible (is it underated or just Esoteric?)
more recently - Vagabonding my Rolph Potts (thanks to Lane)
fiction: What I Was: A Novel by Meg Rosoff. Ok so maybe its not underrated, just not mainstream?
album - Nine Heavens by Niyaz is really neat - talk about Freddie Mercury's roots
movie - Were The World Mine- gay love story - not without its flaws but nicely done, and rather endearing.
9. What is your favorite line from a song?
Wow urmm this is really ironic asking me this - I have at least 78 of them but
at the moment "He's chameleon, comedian, Corinthian and caricature" 10. What was your favorite childhood toy?
If I had to name just one - I had this cute toy piano - the kind with the metal rods inside - shaped like
a mini upright and about 2' tall, I would pull the toy piano next to the TV and play along with the theme songs and
commercials - my Parents thought I was a strange child...when I got older I recorded them on
cassette and upgraded to electronic keyboards... Whenever i see one in a store - I have to stop and play
-but its usually Yann Tiersen or Bjork that I play now - and sometimes Michael Nyman :D
the month of november 2010 | The first excerpt represents the element of Air. It speaks of mental influences and the process of thought, and is drawn from Off on a Comet by Jules Verne: This was addressed to Ben Zoof, who was staring hard at him. "No!" said Ben Zoof. "I thought not; it is of no use waiting for your puzzle-brains to make it out. I must talk to those who can understand." The professor took the cube, and, on attaching it to the hook of the steelyard, found that its apparent weight was one kilogramme and four hundred and thirty grammes. "Here it is, gentlemen; one kilogramme, four hundred and thirty grammes. Multiply that by seven; the product is, as nearly as possible, ten kilogrammes. What, therefore, is our conclusion? Why, that the density of Gallia is just about double the density of the earth, | The second excerpt represents the element of Fire. It speaks of emotional influences and base passions, and is drawn from Captain Stormfield by Mark Twain: that can't speak English. How is that?" "Well, you will find it the same in any State or Territory of the American corner of heaven you choose to go to. I have shot along, a whole week on a stretch, and gone millions and millions of miles, through perfect swarms of angels, without ever seeing a single white one, or hearing a word I could understand. You see, America was occupied a billion years and more, by Injuns and Aztecs, and that sort of folks, before a white man ever set his foot in it. During the first three hundred years after Columbus's discovery, there wasn't ever more than one good lecture audience of white people, all put together, in America - I mean the whole thing, | | The third excerpt represents the element of Water. It speaks of pure spiritual influences and feelings of love, and is drawn from Emma McChesney & Co. by Edna Ferber: Buck bent forward, eagerly. "You're going to tell me now, Emma? It's finished?" "To-night--at home. I want to be the first to try it on. I'll play model. A private exhibition, just for you. It's not only finished; it is patented." "Patented! But why? What is it, anyway? A new fastener? I thought it was a skirt." "Wait until you see it. You'll think I should have had it copyrighted as well, not to say passed by the national board of censors." "Do you mean to say that I'm to be the entire audience at the 
Emma McChesney & Co. | The fourth excerpt represents the element of Earth. It speaks of physical influences and the impact of the unseen on the visible world, and is drawn from O Pioneers! by Willa Cather: do with his might what his hand found to do, and feel that, whatever it was, it was the most important thing in the world. "I'll have to bring Alexandra up to see this thing work," Emil thought; "it's splendid!" When he saw Emil, Amedee waved to him and called to one of his twenty cousins to take the reins. Stepping off the header without stopping it, he ran up to Emil who had dis- mounted. "Come along," he called. "I have 
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